Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

Originally released 7 September 1998, “Only When I Lose Myself” is the 35th single (the 29th in the US) by Depeche Mode. It’s the fifth non-album single and the only previously unreleased track on the compilation “The Singles 86>98”.


12-inch – UK
Mute – 12Bong29 (released 7 September 1998)

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  • A1 Only When I Lose Myself (Subsonic Legacy Remix) 7:00
  • A2 Only When I Lose Myself (Dan The Automator Remix) 4:55
  • B1 Headstar (Luke Slater Remix) 5:47

12-inch limited edition – UK
Mute – L12Bong29 (released 5 October 1998)

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  • A1 Only When I Lose Myself (Gus Gus Long Play Mix) 11:21
  • B1 Painkiller (Kill The Pain Mix – DJ Shadow vs Depeche Mode) 6:34
  • B2 Surrender (Catalan FC Out Of Reach Mix) 6:55

12-inch promo – UK
Mute – P12Bong29 (released in September or October 1998)

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  • A1 Only When I Lose Myself (Dan The Automator Remix) 4:55
  • A2 Only When I Lose Myself (Subsonic Legacy Mix) 7:00
  • B1 Painkiller (Kill The Pain Mix – DJ Shadow vs Depeche Mode) 6:34
  • B2 Headstar 4:23

CD – UK
Mute – CDBong29 (released 7 September 1998)

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  1. Only When I Lose Myself (Single Version) 4:35
  2. Surrender 6:19
  3. Headstar 4:23

CD limited edition – UK
Mute – LCDBong29 (released 7 September 1998)

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  1. Only When I Lose Myself (Subsonic Legacy Remix) 7:03
  2. Only When I Lose Myself (Dan The Automator Remix) 4:57
  3. Headstar (Luke Slater Remix) 5:47

CD limited edition – UK
Mute – XLCDBong29 (released 5 October 1998)

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  1. Only When I Lose Myself (Gus Gus Long Play Mix) 11:21
  2. Painkiller (Kill The Pain Mix – DJ Shadow vs Depeche Mode) 6:34
  3. Surrender (Catalan FC Out Of Reach Mix) 6:55
  4. Only When I Lose Myself (Gus Gus Short Play Mix) 5:06
  5. World In My Eyes (Safar Mix) 8:30 fl

CD promo – UK
Mute – RCDBong29 (released in September or October 1998)

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  1. Only When I Lose Myself (Radio Version) 3:55
  2. Only When I Lose Myself (Single Version) 4:34

2xCD – France
Mute – Labels – 724389533224 (released in 1998)

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  1. Only When I Lose Myself (Single Version) 4:33
  2. Surrender 6:19
  3. Headstar 4:23

  1. Only When I Love Myself (Gus Gus Long Play Mix) 11:21
  2. Painkiller (Kill The Pain – DJ Shadow vs Depeche Mode) 6:34
  3. Surrender (Catalan FC Out Of Reach Mix) 6:55
  4. Only When I Love Myself (Gus Gus Short Play Mix) 5:06
  5. World In My Eyes (Safar Mix) 8:30 fl

CD promo – Spain
Mute – RCA – 74321619572 (released 1988 to promote Depeche Mode concerts in Spain during “The Singles Tour”)

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  1. Only When I Lose Myself (Single Version) 4:36
  2. Surrender 6:18

CD-R promo – UK
Mute – BONG29 (issued 29 April 1998)

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  1. Only When I Lose Myself (Single Version) 4:33

CD-R unofficial promo – UK
Mute – no catalogue number (for internal use only, issued 14 August 1998)

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  1. Only When I Lose Myself (Lexicon Avenue Remix) 10:44

2×12 inch – US
Mute – Reprise Records – 9 44562-0 (released 13 October 1998)

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  • A1 Only When I Lose Myself (Dan The Automator Remix) 4:56
  • A2 Painkiller (Kill The Pain Mix – DJ Shadow vs Depeche Mode) 6:31
  • B1 Headstar (Luke Slater Remix) 5:47
  • B2 Surrender (Catalan FC Out Of Reach Mix) 6:54

  • C1 Only When I Lose Myself (Gus Gus Longplay Mix) 11:18
  • C2 Headstar 4:23
  • D1 Only When I Lose Myself (Subsonic Legacy Remix) 7:00
  • D2 Surrender 6:17

2×12-inch advance promo – US
Mute – Reprise Records – PRO-A-9362 (released 13 October 1998)

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  • A1 Only When I Lose Myself (Dan The Automator Remix) 4:56
  • A2 Painkiller (Kill The Pain Mix – DJ Shadow vs Depeche Mode) 6:31
  • B1 Headstar (Luke Slater Remix) 5:47
  • B2 Surrender (Catalan FC Out Of Reach Mix) 6:54

  • C1 Only When I Lose Myself (Gus Gus Longplay Mix) 11:18
  • C2 Headstar 4:23
  • D1 Only When I Lose Myself (Subsonic Legacy Remix) 7:00
  • D2 Surrender 6:17

CD – US
Mute – Reprise Records – 2-44562 #1 (released 15 September 1998)

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  1. Only When I Lose Myself (Dan The Automator Remix) 4:56
  2. Headstar 4:23
  3. Surrender 6:17
  4. Only When I Lose Myself (Subsonic Legacy Remix) 7:01
  5. Headstar (Luke Slater Remix) 5:46

CD – US
Mute – Reprise Records – 2-44562 #2 (released 13 October 1998)

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  1. Only When I Lose Myself (Gus Gus Longplay Mix) 11:18
  2. Painkiller (Kill The Pain Mix – DJ Shadow vs Depeche Mode) 6:31
  3. Surrender (Catalan FC Out Of Reach Mix) 6:54
  4. Only When I Lose Myself (Gus Gus Shortplay Mix) 4:58
  5. World In My Eyes (Safar Mix) 8:30 fl

CD promo – US
Mute – Reprise Records – PRO-CD-9362 (released in 1998)

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  1. Only When I Lose Myself (Radio Version) 3:53
  2. Only When I Lose Myself (Single Version) 4:34

CD-R promo – US
Mute – Reprise Records – no catalogue number (issued in 1998)

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  1. Only When I Lose Myself (Single Version) 4:33
  2. Headstar 4:25
  3. Surrender 6:17

Note: “Tempt” was the working title for “Surrender”.


CD-R promo – US
Mute – Reprise Records – no catalogue number (issued 2 October 1998)

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  1. Only When I Lose Myself (Gus Gus Mix BRAT Radio Edit) 3:51

CD-R promo – US
Mute – Reprise Records – no catalogue number (issued 23 October 1998)

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  1. Only When I Lose Myself (Josh Abraham Instrumental) 4:25
  2. Only When I Lose Myself (Josh Abraham Master Remix) 4:25
  3. Only When I Lose Myself (Josh Abraham Vocal Up) 4:25
  4. Only When I Lose Myself (Josh Abraham Vocal Down) 4:25
  5. Only When I Lose Myself (Josh Abraham Bass Up) 4:25
  6. Only When I Lose Myself (Josh Abraham Guitar Up) 4:25
  7. Only When I Lose Myself (Josh Abraham Martin’s Guitar Up) 4:25
  8. Only When I Lose Myself (Josh Abraham Acapella) 4:25

CD-R promo – US
Mute – Reprise Records – no catalogue number (issued 2 November 1998)

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  1. Only When I Lose Myself (Josh Abraham Remix Edit) 3:52
  2. Only When I Lose Myself (Josh Abraham Remix) 4:25

CD – Europe / US
Mute – CD BONG 29X / Mute – Reprise – R2 78894E (released 29 March 2004 / 30 March, as part of the Singles Box 6 and separately)

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  1. Only When I Lose Myself (Single Version) 4:36 / 4:33
  2. Surrender 6:19 / 6:19
  3. Headstar 4:24 / 4:23
  4. Only When I Lose Myself (Subsonic Legacy Mix) 7:03 / 7:00
  5. Only When I Lose Myself (Dan The Automator Remix) 4:57 / 4:55
  6. Headstar (Luke Slater Remix) 5:48 / 5:47
  7. Only When I Lose Myself (Gus Gus Long Play Mix) 11:21 / 11:21
  8. Painkiller (Kill The Pain – DJ Shadow vs Depeche Mode) 6:34 / 6:34
  9. Surrender (FC Catalan Out Of Reach Mix) 6:55 / 6:55
  10. Only When I Lose Myself (Gus Gus Short Play Mix) 5:07 / 5:06
  11. World In My Eyes (Safar Mix) 8:31 / 8:30 fl

Note: “Only When I Lose My Self” was also released on cassette in Europe only.


Music video – Worldwide
Mute – no catalogue number (directed by Brian Griffin, released in September 1998)

  1. Only When I Lose Myself (Single Version Edit) 4:14

Depeche Mode – Only When I Lose Myself

  • written by Martin Gore
  • produced by Tim Simenon and Depeche Mode, except fl by Flood (Mark Ellis) and Depeche Mode
  • highest chart position 17 (UK) 61 (US)
  • appears on the compilation The Singles 86>98
  • 1998 Depeche Mode was Andrew Fletcher, David Gahan, and Martin Gore